my son...

as many of you know i love my son... i used to pray... dear God... i know i'm goin' to hell... and i'm okay with that... as long as You make sure he don't go with me... for any who have had the priviledge to meet him... he is an awesome kid... he is more than i could have asked for in a son... in all acutality... he is the soul that i hope to be when the endgame rolls it's last cast... the way he looks at the world... the way he thinks... he has had some issues lately... but alot of that seems to just be where he is in life and the fact that he is starting to turn into a man... now in that... comes fears... in writing this...i have had an honor and priviledge to have other kiddos who have called me dad... and for each one of them... i pray for them every day and am proud of all of their accomplishments even if it can only be done from afar... but Bubba has been by my side his entire life... he has seen things and lived a life that very few 10 year old experience... heh... probably more things than some people see in an entire lifetime... and he has been a shining light through it all... i wrote a poem about it a while back... and it just kinda sums it all up... i can't find it... dangit...