...music soothes the svavge beast...

...heh... nowhere close to a savage beast... just have always liked that saying... just like a beautiful woman can do the same... but music is always there... through death... heartbreak... joy... births... relationships... all seasons... music transcends all... you can hear a sonng and it instantly takes you back... at least for me it does... a soundtrack of life... the smells... the sounds... the laughs... the frowns... it just is... but there are those times when the songlist while totally random seems just to be one of those playlists that you would program yourself... or mebbe God would program it... I think i have only said that aloud once before... those moments that take your breath away... where the world melts away and there is just music... for me that's how a few moments in my life have been... very poignant moments... where i can't remember exactly whut was said... but i can remember the song that was played or playing... heh... my mind travels to those times and places... singing around a campfire by the lake... a moment shared with everyone in a vehicle... kinda the whole Wayne's World type deal... but way better... those moments in life that we don't speak of much... for me i just love to think of them as almost if i speak of them they will lose some of their magic... why do i do that alot? not speak of things... memories... emotions... well... a long time ago i was told that in life i should never get to attached to things... anything... anyone... cuz in the lifestyle we were leading... 3 things would happen... death... prison... or someday you may have to go on the run... literally leaving everything and everyone behind at a moments notice...never getting too close because then it would just mean you may not be able to run... never really talked about this before... well once... either or... having that preprogrammed into me causes big issues... yeah... especially cuz since Bubba has been born... i started to change that... i still get distant very easily... and when you add social anxieties onto that... yeah... i think that's why i like places like facebook and such... i can stay distant... i have changed alot... i am much better at gettin' out in public... i guess with my occcupation it's kinda necessary... but at the same right... that ain't really me... it's just me handin' it off... cuz i couldn't do whut i do without a big carry from the big buy upstairs... that's just how it is with me... left to my own accord... heh... i would not be doin' anything close to whut i am doin' now... with my anxieties... please forgive me... just cuz i talk to you alot the dip... it ain't that i wanna hurt peoples feelings or anything like that... i just don't wanna overdo it with people... overstay my welcome... that's just how it is... either or... freebird is on... go figure... after only God knows why... and When the children cry before that one... lol... it has been like that all night... dang good songs though... so with that... i think it is time to git some z's and just be... faithfully... go figure... lol