The opposite of faith is fear, and the opposite of fear is faith, so if you are fearful, where is your faith?

    We all have fears, it is the fiber of some of our existence at times, we are a nation that is often entertained by fear, it provides a rush of adrenaline and endorphin's that we sometimes crave. Yet we can become muddled in it, and sometimes we can succumb to it. We are taught
     So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.  -Isaiah 41:10
     Yet I feel we often forget the words that have been written on our hearts by the devil and his emissaries. We get bottled up, whether it  is for our lives, our children, or any number of things that we can go through in a day. I am going to be completely transparent in this one, so hold on.
     I am a very fearful man if left to my own accord, I over think too many things and have a hard time 'letting go and letting God'. I often forget His power, attempting to put Him in a box that I see fit, at the same right forgetting that His pinkie toe fails to fit into the largest box I can comprehend in my human mind. I tend to forget all of the promises.
     Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Don't be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows. -Luke 12:7
    So if He knows whats up with hair #523, why do I spend so much time worrying about the rest of it. I tend to forget that this life is only a Journey to the Discovery of a new day. I look at my days trials and tribulations as an insurmountable obstacle, when I am only looking into tomorrow, and God is looking into an eternity. 
    I have been working on returning my family to it's best semblance as possible, in that, I am picking up the pieces of relationships that I helped tatter and bruise over the years. Dealing with hurts that have come from and been dealt from all sides. Trying to mend hearts and souls that have seen their share of wear. I hope that soon my love will be able to make her way back to me and we will not only truly rekindle what we have not lost grip of in seven years or so, but we will finally be married and be able to move onto that next level. We have some battles to win, but I feel we are almost there. We need to find a place to live, that we can afford, we will get married, and we will continue to heal wounds that have been made. In that there is fear, the great 'what if?' We have loved each other from both near and far for so long and yet we both have fears. We often fail to fully embrace the fact that even when we disliked each other that there was always love there, and even before either one of us came to the Lord there was faith.
    In one year Streets Of Hope has gone from me, a rusty Bronco, and a bible, to the operation it is becoming. Multiple fleet vehicles, multiple 'home bases' if you will, and more people than I can count or name who have been supporting this movement in ways that I dared not dream. In that we have had blessings and outpourings that are incomparable, we have gone from nothing to something. In that we have such and excess of donations in so many things that we have turned to donating our excess in these things to other outreaches and ministries. Yet we run a razors edge with finances, and right now our 2 vans are in disrepair, the blessing in that, we have been loaned vehicles to be able to continue our transporting folks in need. We have been able to either assist many people in ways that we never expected and even in areas have assisted people in other states of our great nation. Yet the fears still come. 
     I often forget what it says in the first book of James.

2Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. 6But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; 8he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does.

9The brother in humble circumstances ought to take pride in his high position. 10But the one who is rich should take pride in his low position, because he will pass away like a wild flower. 11For the sun rises with scorching heat and withers the plant; its blossom falls and its beauty is destroyed. In the same way, the rich man will fade away even while he goes about his business.

12Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.

Most of all I have to remember that I must not bottle up my fears inside, I must come before the Lord and use His strength as mine, never forgetting that it is His power that is given. In that to always remember to fear not, for He is with me. Secondly, to let those who mean something to me who will lift me up on this earth when I am weary, know that I am afraid, because let's face it, we all have times of fear. It's up to us to decide, what do we do with that fear, do we let it eat us alive, or do we stand up and move in faith, and if we can't ask our brothers and sisters for help us up in the truth that we are family and that's what family does. I love each and everyone of you and God does too.